CHAPTER ONE: The Proposal (Six Months Before the Wedding)
Maya Torres
had planned four hundred and thirty-seven weddings.
She knew the
exact temperature at which champagne flutes began to sweat—forty-two degrees
Fahrenheit. She knew which flowers wilted first under church
candelabras—peonies, always the peonies, their petals dropping like tears
within three hours. She knew which hotels had loading docks that could
accommodate a fifteen-foot wedding cake without scraping the buttercream
frosting. She knew, with the cold precision of a battlefield general, that the
difference between a "rustic chic" wedding and a "shabby
chic" funeral was approximately seven mason jars and a burlap runner.
What she did
not know, standing in her own kitchen on a Tuesday evening in late October, was
how to tell her fiancé that she hated the napkins.
"They're
*eggshell*, Maya." Leo Chen held up the fabric sample between his thumb
and forefinger, squinting at it like it was a questionable lab result. His
surgical training made him do that—examine everything with the same clinical
detachment he used on patients. "They go with everything. They're neutral.
Safe. Reliable."
"They
go with *nothing*." She pressed her palm flat against the kitchen island,
feeling the cool marble ground her rising temper. The counter was imported from
Italy, a splurge she had justified because she spent so much time in this
kitchen. Now it felt like a stage for her growing frustration. "The
tablecloths are ivory. The charger plates are gold. Eggshell is just—it's
*dirty* ivory, Leo. It looks like someone smoked a cigarette over them. It
looks like a stain pretending to be a color."
Leo laughed.
That easy, surgical laugh that had charmed her on their first date—a laugh that
said *I am calm, I am reasonable, why are you panicking?* It was the laugh of a
man who had never once in his life been asked to choose between three shades of
white. The laugh of a man who had grown up with a mother who made all his
decisions for him, and a career that rewarded decisive action in the operating
room but allowed passivity everywhere else.
"Babe,"
he said, dropping the napkin sample onto the counter and wrapping his arms
around her waist from behind. His breath was warm against her ear. "I
don't care if they're eggshell, ivory, or construction-vest orange. I care that
*you* care. So pick the ones you want. I'll write the check. I'll sign whatever
form. I'll do whatever you need."
It was
supposed to be romantic. It was supposed to be *supportive*.
Instead, it
made something hot and tight coil in Maya's chest. *Pick the ones you want.* As
if the problem was her indecision. As if the problem wasn't that she had been
making every single decision for six months while he floated through the
engagement like a man on a permanent vacation from responsibility. As if her
exhaustion wasn't the real issue—her loneliness in this partnership, her
growing sense that she was planning a wedding for two people who were only
showing up as one.
She pulled
away gently, busying herself with the kettle. The familiar ritual of making
tea—filling the kettle, selecting a mug, choosing a teabag from the ornate
wooden box her sister had given her—gave her hands something to do while her
mind raced.
"The
venue called today," she said, keeping her voice light, professional, the
voice she used with difficult clients. "They need the final headcount by
Friday. Your mother added twelve people to the guest list last week. That puts
us at two hundred and thirty-eight. The fire marshal caps the room at
two-twenty."
Leo frowned,
his brow furrowing in that way that made him look boyish and confused.
"Can't we just... squeeze? People stand in the back sometimes. I've been
to weddings where people stood."
"It's a
*fire marshal*, Leo. Not a carpool. Not a dinner party. It's a legal
regulation. If there's an emergency, that room can't hold more than two hundred
and twenty people. We could be fined. We could be liable. And more importantly,
I don't want to spend my wedding day worried about whether my guests are going
to be burned alive because your mother invited her entire mahjong circle."
Leo held up
his hands in surrender, backing toward the living room. "Okay, okay. I'll
talk to my mom. I'll handle it. I'll tell her we have to cut ten people. I'll
handle it this weekend."
She wanted
to believe him. She wanted to believe that he would actually call his mother,
actually tell her *no*, actually choose Maya's sanity over his mother's desire
to invite everyone she had ever played bridge with. But she had been engaged to
Leo Chen for six months, and she had learned a painful truth: Leo's version of
"handling it" meant avoiding it until the problem went away or until
someone else solved it for him.
This was the
man she was marrying.
This was the
man who had proposed to her on a rooftop in Santorini, down on one knee with
the Aegean Sea glittering behind him like a postcard. She had cried. She had
said yes without hesitation. She had called her mother, her sister, her three
best friends, and screamed into the phone so loudly that a tourist from Ohio
had offered her a Xanax.
That
Maya—the Maya who believed in fairy tales, who believed that love conquered
all, who believed that Leo's flaws were just *quirks* that would smooth out
after marriage—that Maya felt like a stranger now.
Now she was
a woman standing in her kitchen, obsessing over napkin colors, wondering if
this was what marriage was supposed to feel like: a slow erosion of self, a
thousand tiny compromises that felt less like teamwork and more like surrender.
A thousand small relinquishments of her own desires, her own opinions, her own
identity.
She poured
her tea, ignored the napkin sample, and went to bed at 9:17 PM.
Leo stayed
up watching basketball.
She fell
asleep to the muffled sound of sports commentators arguing about a foul, the
rhythm of their voices a lullaby of her growing resentment.
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